Gene Expression is one of my favourite authors

Do you mean that you now sleep normally or that you now sleep as if you worked nightshifts?

In the sense that I'm pushing myself too hard physically and that prevents me from sleeping?

The tricky part is getting that habituated bed time started. If I dont sleep for 36 or 48 hours I have an easier time to meet a bedtime deadline but if I have anything over 4 hours of sleep, my brain is running at 150% for at least the next 24 hours. I practice good sleep hygiene, get a 3-5 km walk 4 or 5 times and 3 lifting sessions a week but my mind won't stop. I'm physically exhausted 90% of the time yet my brain says "no, you don't need to sleep"

Oh lmfao Ok I see where I went wrong. I thought you were saying 2 handles was easy and you would go for a third handle as opposed to a third of a handle lol. Ya I would love to be able to sleep naturally again some day, cheers to a better future

Nah I understand a little bit. I've resorted to the bottle too many times as well but never anywhere near 3 handles, I would be surprised if I ever hit 1 handle as a personal record. We need to get you on some edibles or something my man.

After seeing your name I feel like there needs to be an organization of people that have existing names with letters switched around on here

Are you wolverine? How the hell are you alive??

Do you really want that kind of superficial attention? It may look nice on the outside to have people fawn over you but you know internally they are only being nice because they want something from you. Do you want genuine relationships or transactional ones? You don't really want to rely on people who only treat you nice because of your appearance. If someone is rude or mean to you due to your appearance, you should be thankful they showed their ugliness rather than being manipulated by shitty people with that mindset.

Up late

Been about 15 years since I read it but that's what I recall. Thinking the opposite of what you originally think and being able to delude yourself into believing both are true. Like brainwashing yourself into being a better liar so you don't get your cheeks clapped for thought crime.