Spoiler alert: these do not taste good.

cross-posted from: https://discuss.tchncs.de/post/69535960

Crossposted from https://lemmy.world/post/53323419

So when I moved out my aunt gifted me an old Delonghi coffee machine she had in her attic. Today I've cleaned it up and bought some double walled espresso glasses, steel milk jug, and milk thermometer.

Just made my first coffee with them and it's such a boost for my mental health to have a little luxury like this in the morning. I'm currently just buying pre-ground coffee because I don't have a grinder and I'd also like a better solution for getting the used grounds out of the handle cup thing (sorry I'm new to this don't know the terms yet) without scraping them out into the bin using a teaspoon. Please can you people suggest some ideas and also what I should save up for next to improve the whole coffee making process.

Thank you :)

Edit: please excuse the mess in the background, my mental health hasn't been the best recently.

Title says it all, I just can't find a reason to keep going for myself. The only reasons I haven't found a way out of living is because:

1. I haven't found a method with a good success rate that would be painless, not messy, and if I messed up wouldn't leave me with a lifelong condition.

2. The fact that it would cause a massive amount of pain and grief for family and friends, and probably push my mother and my uncle over the edge for them to do something similar.

That's it. I should be greatful and happy, I've come a very long way from some serious shite situations including being massively in debt, so broke I was eating sleep, a shouting match filled childhood looking after my mum, a hellish work environment that drove me to my last attempt, and being bullied and isolated at school so much that if I wasn't in a country with strict gun laws I would have actioned a plan that made the Columbine teens look like amateurs.

But no, I genuinely can't find a reason as to live for myself. It fucking annoys me that I'm having to stay alive out of guilt for other people. Everything I see in the world seems to just be descending into more and more conflict, the summers keep getting hotter, and despite there being solutions available they're not being implemented fast enough because a handful of rich pricks aren't happy the number in their portfolio.

There's nothing I find externally that fuels me with a passion for living so instead of just getting the death over with I feel pressured by society to accept the longer drawn out version because apparently no sane person would voluntarily wish to cease to exist if there's nothing medically or situationally wrong with them.

The SSRIs are helping with keeping the mood on an even keel but these thoughts still persist. They have done since I was young. And thanks to society frowning upon suicide nobody will offer me a quick and painless death.

I'm still learning about electrical assets for work reasons but I have quite a few pictures so I thought a Lemmy community would be a good place to visually learn about this infrastructure and how it exists in the world.