People keep supporting politicians that haven't actually done anything for them.

I write software but I radicalized myself with Solarpunk. Now I need to find a way I can put my talents towards a tech positive future while Big Tech is turning fascist and hate against LLMs becomes nondifferentiating.

Living in iran.

Life is an endless grind of pointless suffering with no end.

My wife’s mental state. She has a job that has a pay and compensation package that cannot be ignored or left. The work could be really amazing and really could be magical for her except..

SHE WORKS FOR A FUCKING ASSHOLE WHO LOVES TO MAKE THINGS MISERABLE!!

We have all worked for that guy. It is not about the work problems or the real effort of work. The guy makes her life hell and I see what it is doing to her.

I do everything I can to take every bit of weight off of her, but that only accomplishes so much.

You can shovel shit in a muggy swamp and be happy if you have a boss you gel with. If you have a terrible boss it just doesn’t matter what the work is.

Thing is she gets that pay.

Well, at the top of the hierarchy is probably capitalism. That's largely why the climate is changing, why I don't have a good job, why I need a good job to live a decent life, and so on.

More immediately, my water glass is empty but my cat is sleeping on my chest. I'm thirsty but Mr Meows is so content.

Finances.

I don't want to be rich. I don't care about money all that much.

My definition of success has always been that if I can let a payday come and go without having to look at my bank accounts and shifting money around to make sure everything is taken care of, that's all I want. I want to make enough that I don't have to check my bank account before every bill comes out. I can be assured that the money that is needed will be there.

Had that for a while. No longer do. And it really really sucks.

Social circle too small. Keeps shrinking instead of growing.

I just got laid off

Reality in general. Turns out bad guys win all the time, and there is no such thing as justice if noone in power gives a damn.

The fucking ultra-wealthy not paying their taxes and their wealth not being taxed. It's the root of every single one of my problems.

Shit's too expensive. Don't have time to make everything from scratch to save a few bucks.

The man-sized hamster wheel known as debt.

I don’t know what I want for lunch!

Multi decade pay increases never matching inflation

the constant struggle to live in the present. we will all be dead and forgotten soon, so why bother living in a constant pissed off state of mind when none of it matters anyway

I feel like I'm watching the world burn down around me. So I guess I'd say pessimism.

I haven't taken a shit for days, so it's more of a number two problem.

Canadian Immigration medical job recruiters are proving to be very unreliable, and dare I say lazy. If they’re going to offer a fast track, they need to hire people who make it fast. It’s literally the last checkbox on the list. I could be in Canada by the end of the month! Ffs!

Poverty.

Me

benign prostatic hyperplaia. aside from having to get up to tinkle a few tablespoons every half hour or every time I stand up, without the meds I can't go at all then bladder backs up and causes terrible kidney pain and does damage. on the meds I can empty the bladder but then it's hard to hold it in plus it ruins orgasms, dry firing is just weird feeling and not satisfying. I'm only 50 and want to go until at least my 80s but decades to go looks intimidating. i can get the turp surgery but will never ejaculate again which makes me sad. i suppose peeing is more important.

FAT

Currently - need to find an apartment in another state. I will be visiting it next weekend, but none of the complexes in our price range will answer their phone or return Voicemail to set up an appointment.

Life generally.

My own brain. My depression is getting bad again, but I'll be restarting esketamine soon and I hope that'll help like it did last time.

having some tooth sensitivity and dull pain since late FEB, but dont have dental insurance, because i had to voluntarily go off it from state subsidized healthcare because i just make just enough not to be covered. had to buy ACA healthcare, dental insurance is non-existent and individual plans dont cover much if anything, complicated by the fact that some dentist will not accept certain dental plans because of low reimbursements, or very long waits to get reimbursed. i had to see a emergency dentists, luckily in my area but it was several hundred for a limited exam and x ray and they want do a full exam and cleaning for more than twice that. currently looking for options(debating on going back to the old dentist i was with state healthcare who was so-so, and not great). cant really see an endontist until properly diagnosed needing a RC by a dentist.

I want to code, but I don't know what to make that I would actually use.

The second law of thermodynamics.

Median productivity goes up yet median quality of life goes down.

Physically: tummy :(
Mentally: gestures vaguely at the state of things
Emotionally: Loneliness
Temporally: Work is not over yet
Spiritually: Life feels meaningless without having somene to spend it with
Socially: I feel out of place where i live due to being surrounded by MAGA losers
Relationally: My friends secretly hate me
Financially: I cannae afford my hobbies
Intellectually: I can feel my cognition slowly fading
Creatively: The stresses of life leave little room for creative expression

Split between either housing or bureaucracy

Housing is... not actually about affordability, but rather the plain difficulty of even getting a rental. I'm living in supposedly a part of Europe with a good housing market, but even here every decent rental on the market would instantaneously get 20+ applicants, so it's quite competitive... not as bad as NL, but still pretty rough

Bureaucracy because of expat/immigrant/etc shenanigans

Health issues. Which makes me worry about job loss and bills. So yeah