I get your point and share your worries, but I ended up concluding that I will regret more aiding the descent to fascism than being a casualty of it.

Think of all the people that survived Nazi Germany while being a collaborator and seeing all the horrors their cowardice helped occur.

I don't think those people would have happy lives after that, I know I wouldn't.

Furthermore, I believe that if I don't act now when is somewhat safe, I will act latter down the line and would definitely get killed.

It's your choice.

This is the sole thing that keeps me down. My spouse is a first generation American with brown skin in a Republican state. If any attention is drawn to us, her, her parents, her autistic brother, the lady that cuts my hair, the grocery we visit down the road, half the parents in our neighborhood, I'm the only person in my community that isn't currently represented in the ICE victim pool. If I rock the boat every single person I care about gets a plane trip to a foreign prison.

Every day it gets worse. Eventually, it won't be plane rides, it will be ditches. Even if I don't attract the attention of the government, it's cultists yell racial slurs in as they drive lifted trucks past my community. They gnaw at the bit for a chance to cut loose and remove this stain from their white city.

I've seen the local protests, 10 people with signs on a busy intersection a mile from the courthouse. The police point and laugh as commuters throw drinks at them from their cars for thinking that human rights belong in a red state.

What the fuck do I do? What can I, standing here, actually do to change anything? There isn't a single action that I can take that does not threaten to burn down my community and leave my child an orphan, and even still I'm here asking how I can solve this problem.

You bring up my first intuition on the matter. If the federal government wanted to destabilize counter movements, they most certainly would take three approaches: (1) propagandize the organizations leading those movements, (2) attack the organizations leading those movements, and (3) attack the members of the organizations leading those movements. Look no further than the history between the US and their workers unions.

However, this perspective is unfair. It doesn’t quite justify the alternative, because the alternative seems to be: “don’t join the organization, alleviate the risk from yourself.” That’s just inaccurate positing from the fears mentioned here. The truth is, doing nothing has risks that you can’t predict. Though, you can approximate your risks by asking yourself: “what if I was on a green card right now?” Doing that, at least, lets you view the problem as though it’s already at your doorstep — and this gives justice to the inherent risk we all face during a fascist takeover. Fascists only start with minorities, as they develop the infrastructure necessary to target anyone they please.