But I could be doing anything else and I don't know why. I'll convince myself that a weeks worth of work can be achieved in a day, then get all stressed about it because there's too much to do in a day and somehow not do a god damn thing.

But I can't start yet, it's not HH:00, HH:15, HH:30, or HH:45.

It's like both sides of my brain are pulling me between them

I'm doing it right now!

I've long since embraced the last-minute crunch. I'm confident in my ability to get things done in those last few moments, so I can procrastinate without a care in the world. Plus now I'm much better at handling big issues that come up with very little time to handle them, because I only would've left myself that much time anyway.

Internal locus of control vs. External locus of control

this is my life

AaaAaahhhhhhhhhhhh 😭😭😭😭😭😭

Way too often, sometimes I procrastinate less and finish some tasks before the deadline because too many times that I procrastinated and I ran out of time

Yes

Occasionally. Way more when I was younger, but I've learned to do shit immediately as it comes up so I can go back to being a lump doing nothing quicker. Sometimes, tho, I'll change trash bags in the garbage and put the full bag next to the front door for when I next go out and then forget about it. 🫩