Don't push it too hard or you'll become a hemorrhoid
My dad had paid someone to draw my portrait from a graduation photo. The drawing is horribly bad. It's also quite big and hanging on a wall at the center of the house so there's no chance one could avoid looking at it.
I practically always wear tight leggins or shorts under trousers, it feels safer somehow. Only exception is when I'm at home, then I can't weat tight clothes. Autumn is especially difficult time as it's hard to estimate whether I should use shorts or long leggins or perhaps 3/4 length with knee socks underneath.
I had a meltdown yesterday morning that drained all my energy and ruined the whole day. Too hot socks played a significant role. Another factor was that an outsider saw me in my home clothes.
But the internal creepification just keeps adding up. I think I'm cracking up.
Thank you for sharing your experiences and thoughts! I agree that we need a lot more realistic positivity in these communities - hearing about experiences like yours gives hope that change is possible and we can build resilience by finding ways to acceot ourselves and improve or even enjoy our ND lives. Resilience is also something we need for collective action. Although I don't think the solution to the damage and harm capitalism causes is that everyone personally fixes themselves first (you didn't say so, just acknowledging the idea in our culture that internal work and therapy is the key to everything).
I'm currently processing these same things in my own life. I feel so relieved after figuring out I need to change the way I react to and think about things - and it actually is the key to shifting everything that's burdening me. Shame has been such a deep-rooted and significant factor that's shadowing my life that re-programming beliefs and thought patterns takes such a long time, but it does pay off. I was in that negativity hole a long time, blaming others or situations for my misery but not taking much action to change things. Experiencing burnout was an important factor for me in realizing I can't keep on doing things the way I've done so far. Finding right medication has played a significant role as well. I suppose sometimes the change of perspective comes by changing the brain chemistry.
I feel sad about losing people in my life though. It shows me how few balanced relationships I have and how much energy I've used to keep up relationships to unhealthy people. I hope one day I'll be part of a community.
I have it on my butt. Seeing how well it went, they must've been looking at the wrong hole when assigning my gender.
It clearly is a gigantic owl and not a miniature barn!
The smoke sauna project, which has taken 3 summers already, is finally finished and we did a test burn today. Sauna didn't catch fire and there was only a minor explosion so everything went better than expected. Tomorrow we'll heat it properly. I also built a fire pit for a bonfire. There are no neighbours present so didn't need to communicate with anyone apart from my SO, also it's completely dark outside as no lights are on so even the milkyway is visible!
What a nice day!
manul
Juhla Mokka is not my cup of coffee but Lidl does have affordable options. Herkku coffees from S group are surprisingly good as well and cost ~5€. I used to buy Nordqvist Reko, it was a decent and pretty affordable fairtrade & organic option. Nowadays I mostly drink tea.
500g of somewhat decent ground coffee costs 8-9€ in a grocery store.