Can you define "crash out"? Like, fuck up something in your life?

Just like… breathing.. and stuff

Insane binge eating after 10 pm, especially cheese. Also sending passive aggressive emails at work.

The more difficult you find it too slow down and think about what you're about to say, the more you definitely should

Noticing I just hung a knight fork.

Staring with barely blinking, going silent, heavier deeper breathing. When deeper in it then i start grinning and eventuelly laughting. And depending on what made me break i start monologing elaborately like i were writing a theatical poetry

I get grumpy mostly. I try to look how much ive eaten/hydrated myself because my mood is food dependent.

Or i get stressed but then i somehow try to finish my tasks before hiding for 5 minuten to give myself space to crash out a bit: which does rarely work...

I am talking about little crashouts

I'll suddenly become completely calm. Almost fully numb. I'll be in the middle of bitching about the situation and the next second I'm just standing there emotionless. That's my cue to leave whatever situation I'm in as soon as possible because if one more thing goes wrong I'm gonna start throwing chairs.

While I'm driving for/at work, I know it's break time when I want to sing along with the radio, but just can't. Whether it's from fatigue or frustration, doesn't really matter either way.

Quickest way to set me off is to interrupt my performance. If I try to power through a song while, say, getting brake-checked, I usually just replace the lyrics with swearing.

For something... I dunno, wider in scope, I guess(?), I tend to find myself needing to make a change when I catch myself scrolling through real estate listings. The further away the city, the worse I find myself feeling.

If I ask myself “Am I manic?” The answer is YES every single time I’ve asked myself this question and was like hmm I’m not sure, no maybe not, oh I’m good, I was absolutely manic in retrospect. I’ve also noticed that being aware and accepting that a manic episode might be coming seems to tone them down a lot

By crash out I mean more like “be a general fuck up” in some way not necessarily lose my temper, I don’t really do that