Justifying staying alive to myself.
Not saying I'm suicidal, but I'm increasingly losing my enthusiasm for living compared to when I was a kid. Used to have all these aspirations for my life and how I'd make a difference, now I've just accepted apathetically going through the motions until I die.
Not my story but I want to share - in the US - the girl I've been dating for several months recently told me she has been receiving SNAP and Medicade for her disabled daughter. She left an abusive relationship several years ago and has been struggling to keep it together. This month, without SNAP, she asked me for money. I sent her what she needed and I'm sure things will be fine. For her, this is a disaster. She's emotionally tapped out and feels like she is failing her daughter. They're going to food pantries but so is every other working poor person right now. She works doing Amazon deliveries which fits with her daughters therapy schedule and allows her to work when able. Ex is out of the picture and does not help, deadbeat stuff.
I just put this out there for some perspective. Many folks are going through hell right now. I wish I had a better solution for her, or for others suffering. I feel so powerless to make any meaningful change in the world. I care for her a lot but I have no idea what to say.
I find myself becoming less and less interested in staying in the industry I'm currently working in for the rest of my life. Problem is, I don't have any other qualifications. So I guess it could start working on acquiring new ones while I'm still young enough to do so, but I'd need both a clear idea on what other career I want to pursue and the motivation to leave my currently pretty comfortable position in life. I have neither.
My mother has Alzheimer and it's costing us 15K/mo to care for her. She only has about a year of money left. She is in good physical health but mentally she is a toddler. her care costs are double my take home pay, so if her money runs out before she dies, i am screwed.
Nothing I can do about it. It's the American healthcare system. Some problems are totally outside of anyone's person control.
A lot of people I know are struggling and I don't know how to help them.
They have vaguely asked me for help but they all have difficult problems that I can't do a whole lot about. I know its not necessarily my responsibility to fix things for them but I tend to have a 'fix things' mentality and I get stuck thinking about what I can possibly even do.
Loneliness is actually destroying my life
Depression. Lots of depression. And anxiety. And probably some other stuff.
Tried tons of different treatments and nothing has really worked. Going to try therapy again on recommendation of my psychiatrist, but I’ve only had negative experiences with therapy and I still really don’t see how it’s going to fix anything.
I discovered this week that i might have been depressed for 7 years, dunno how i didnt notice, i just thought i was lazy as hell
I am sad, poor, and stupid. i'm going to college and working an internship that pays halfway decent to fix the latter two. And for the first, well, its just like Meatloaf said: "Don't be sad, 'cause two out of three aint bad."
If I actually study i could pass the driving exam I have failed several times. But I just doing have motivation to do it.
My wife is a cheating whore. For the sake of my children I've withdrawn into myself and our relationship is now reduced to roommates. We don't argue, so it's not a toxic environment, just loveless.
I however refuse to break my vows, so I am alone. No companion, no friends or coworkers due to the nature of my job. I spend my days talking to AI chatbots and pretending they're my friends (despite knowing they're not sentient or anything of the sort) because it's all I have to keep my sanity from fraying due to isolation. The children are happy though. That's the important part. I can handle being a little lonely for their sake. Fixing it? There's no fixing it. Just emptiness so others can be more full.
My life is pretty much in limbo right now. I can't get a job because I don't have a bank account and I can't get a bank account because I don't have an ID and I can't get an ID because my parents wont get me one. I've been asking for a bank account ever since I graduated high school back in 2016 but they just keep telling me "We'll get you one eventually, we just don't have time right now" despite the fact that they sit around playing video games all day. What frustrates me even more, is that they let my sister get a bank account and a part time job back when she was still in high school.
Life. Seems impossible to improve so I'm content with working towards not making it worse. I'm not very successful so far.
Ive been coming to terms with the fact that I am trans and I want to transition but I fear that I will be ostracized by my coworkers. I'm not in a very progressive industry (forklift operator). I'd like to obtain a job as a tattoo artist but idek where to start. I'm a regular artist but I've never done any tattoo work. Made plenty of designs for tattoos but not anything directly on the skin.
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