"Whatever I thought I understood before from listening to women, it's nothing compared to what it's like to live it."

I'm reminded of something I read a while back, where a man named Marty accidentally was mistakenly sending emails with his female coworker's email signature and was puzzled for a while on why people were being so difficult. When he realised it, he and his colleague, Nicole, decided to switch emails for a week, as a more deliberate, extended experiment. They both did a write-up of the experience. Marty's was a Twitter thread that I can't access anymore, but Nicole wrote a blog post covering her side

In Nicole's words:

"Nothing changed, except that our clients read me as male and Marty as female. I had one of the easiest weeks of my professional life. He… didn’t."

What I found so interesting about this story is that it sounds like this Marty guy was a genuine ally. Like, when Nicole called him out for speaking over her at meetings, he listened and started using his voice to bring attention to Nicole (and other women) at meetings. Iirc from his Twitter thread, he thought of himself as an ally who understood how hard women have it. Until this thing with the email signatures, that is.

I think you're right that even if some of the harassment you've experienced is transphobia related, a lot of it will be misogyny. And I think that part of why trans women are so prominently discussed by transphobes is because of the prevalence of transmisogyny specifically.

Yeah, especially early transition (in my experience) the harassment was fucking constant. It probably didn't help that I was in my early 20s still at the time. But in addition to a lot of these guys just generally being misogynists they tend to target women who look insecure, young, marginalized, etc. Don't get me wrong, it continues, but I've definitely found for me personally the everyday street harassment type stuff waned over the years. Well that or I stopped noticing all but the most egregious examples of it.

Congrats on the transition, unfortunately yeah the prevalence of aggressive misogyny was somewhere between accurate and understated

I'm happy for you, that you're able to live openly now.

And sorry, yeah. It's hard to explain to anyone who hasn't been in the shit. There will be good experiences, too.

I once met the coolest men who were drunkenly celebrating a bachelor party and invited me to join (I was smoking a cigar alone on a beach after a break up) and we became friends, so I try not to close myself off to that kind of thing. At the same time all the shoving and shouting and touching makes it really fucking hard to do that.

I am so deeply sorry, honey. My heart breaks for you. I hope you know that you don't ever deserve aaany of that shit! I wish I could bite all their heads off for you and for everyone else these garbage bags harass. :(

I'm sending so much love to you over the Internet. I'm so damn sorry that this has been part of your welcoming to finding and living openly as the woman you are. I don't even know what to say, it's just not right!! It's extra fucked because it's like, this should be such a joyous time for you, and as usual the assholes ruin it for the decent, innocent people. I hate it so much. I'm all weepy over here for you. I'm sending you big, big Internet hugs, if you want them. 🫂💖