Hey sib, thanks for your story, love to hear your perspective actually. :)
The way I as a transfem view it re: HRT and crying, is that we also do experience the same emotions. Pre HRT and pre egg, when an old family member was going to be buried, I also cried; but it felt like I didn't "want" to, as if there is a veil over my feelings. I think part of that is the social expectation of "tough men don't cry". But I disagree. I did cry as well, eventually, but it took longer, and I didn't do so as 'quickly'.
When I got on HRT, it felt like the veil had been lifted and I could express my feelings more clearly. I think that it doesn't depend on hormones but on what you've been conditioned to as being "acceptable to do". Maybe, once I got HRT, I felt like a weight was lifted and I could cry earlier and more thorough on my own volition. Whether that is due to hormones or due to social expectation, who is to say.
small bit about my own dysphoria, just needed to vent it, please ignore
that said, i am pretty happy so far with my HRT. Boobs could be a bit bigger, hips wider... but it's going the right way now, and I can look more at myself in the mirror. The only big thing I'm still dissatisfied with is the lack of a vagina and uterus. I really want to carry a child someday, but that isn't possible without a transplant. I'll find a way, though!
I feel like for transmascs and transbys with strong dysphoria (it imo isn't dysphoria but euphoria that primarily determines what would be good), it might be the same with regard to lacking a dick or being too strongly gendered in their body...
On your very last sentence, same, amen. It feels (un)intentionally a bit misogynistic.
I cannot say how HRT would be for you - that is individually different. But I'd like to think that cool men(by's) absolutely do cry. And that you already being able to do so, helps.
Whatever you feel as is valid; only you can figure out what that is. Whether cis, trans, or what else.