The world puts an unbelievable amount of emphasis on having sex as a mandatory aspiration. Most advertising is coded for either sex or hunger or fear. Most people are sexual people who frame things sexually, even subtly. Douglas Adams even once wrote that the basis of literally every construction and technology and artistic work on the planet was to impress someone of the opposite sex.

Needless to say, it’s hard to keep from internalizing some of this in some way. If you’d look at r/asexuality and the Lemmy asexual communities, you’d see a lot of people realizing “oh shit, I’m not broken!” after spending whole-ass years thinking they were.

There is still a small voice inside me that says I’m an idiot for not chasing sex. I can’t help it. Society is pervasive.