1. Because I don't wanna be a grumpy redditor with fingers covered in cheeto dust, jacking off to James Randi and Richard Dawkins arguing over who thinks the Bible is faker and gayer, with no magic to console me about the cruelty of the world, no afterlife to look forward to, stuck with the knowledge that this is all there is ever going to be.

2. I mean, I don't want to disbelieve in miracles and mystery, but we live in a society laugh track where God cannot be found. Everyone with magic gets debunked, every study that confirms a supernatural power seems to get slapped with accusations of fraud and "The File Drawer Effect", and the evidence continues to pile up for a Materialistic view of the universe where nothing is immaterial and everything is ultimately matter or springs up from it...

I don't want to be an Atheist, but if God's here I can't find him.

Those people bombing hospitals are also evil. Stopping them from bombing hospitals wont stop babies from getting cancer. There can be (and are) multiple evil things and beings in life.

You seem to have forgotten the context of the comment chain. The grandparent comment of your comment that I replied to said that if Christ returned, the commenter would instantly convert. Christ returning would strongly imply that Christianity is correct. In Christianity, God is all knowing (omniscient) and all powerful (omnipotent). Being such a powerful god, if He doesn't stop babies from getting cancer in the first place, He is either evil or impotent.