Screaming at the voices in your head is fine, but you don't actually need to hit the post button.

So it got worse?

You ignoring the deaths of millions so your gas is cheap is of course anything but idiotic, because you're just the best person to ever exist and everyone who disagrees is one of them subhuman russian orcs, right?

And notice how you didn't refute my accusation one bit because

Because we aren't in debate club. This is not a dialog. You're acting like an idiot and I'm making fun of you to your face.

it's in words finally!

yeah it's insidious. it manifests in many ways but the deadliest part is how it can fuck with your sense of self preservation. and I don't just mean ending it all, but also how it feels like a truth etched into reality that any attempt to improve things for your future self is a pointless pursuit.

the only reason im still here is because despite it all, I had some people in my life that helped me get to the door. it comes and goes and it's never intuitive how I can't truly remember how it feels until it's already here, but what's helped is reading my stories from those times of my life. for whatever reason, I find it easier to express my feelings through fiction, rather than writing diary entries. that and therapy. can recommend, very helpful

That's the most devious and hateful aspect of depression, the way it makes you believe with 100% certainty in a hopeless future. Like if you felt depression, but you also knew in your bones that it'd pass and you'd be back to a happier state soon enough, it wouldn't be anywhere near as dangerous. But it really warps your sense of reality. You will look back at your depressed self and wonder what the fuck they were thinking. But no matter how many times you go through it, you never remember how transitory it is the next time it hits you. Gotta leave yourself notes and essays to find when you're in the pits of despair, like the fella in the movie Memento 😆

Just vote, please.

I've never interpreted "Hang in there, it will get better" to mean "Wait and do nothing." I've always seen it more directed at kids who are being bullied more as a directive to "Do what you can to survive. Kids are assholes, parents might be dicks, but if you can make it to adulthood, you can find your people that will accept you for who you are."

I don't think this post implies passivity. The point that I at least take is that your effort isn't in service of a meaningless struggle and it is worth it to keep going.

It doesn't just get better though. It takes a personal overcoming. It takes effort and discipline, and it takes courage. It's painful. Rarely does the universe just hand you "better" on a silver platter. This kind of passivity is dangerous.

In the words of inspectah deck

Ready to give up, so I seek the old Earth

Who explained workin' hard may help you maintain

To learn to overcome the heartaches and pain

Not always. I have these occassional depressions where I am out for almost the entire day--just in bed or minimally functional. Then the sun starts to set and I start to get better having done absolutely nothing for myself.

Sometimes waiting isn't a bad strategy.

The good news is that it gets better.

That bad news is that it also gets worse.

Then they are well positioned to draw some trend lines. Go science!

What if someone has been through numerous "getting better"

I wish initial posting dates were required on all posts.

It doesn't get better for everyone, but eventually you give up on your dreams and go numb and lower all your standards and you can find a way to keep going. Just have to hang in there until your brain acclimates.

Nov 9, 2023

i am happy that Teto Vocaloid is no long depressed.

this needs to have a date on the before post.

Slightly fair. It wont get better on it's own. It is getting better coz we do things.

You probably can't believe it but I do go outside and organize with others to try and make the world a better place.

And notice how you didn't refute my accusation one bit because attacking my intelligence was more important to you? The USA is a cancer upon the world and its citizens don't care about the extreme suffering their foreign policy causes to instead celebrate another party taking over the murder everyone machine without ever showing the slightest sign of wanting to stop said machine. How many dead people do you accept as long as your groceries and gas are cheap?

What are you if not national chauvinistic

I'm a public servant who selflessly brings enlightenment to stupid people by dunking on them. For example, the stupid opinion you just expressed in your comment is so incredibly dumb in its foundations that it can only come from a stupid brain, so I'm making fun of you for acting like an idiot online instead of getting your dumb ass off the computer and going outside into the real world.

What are you if not national chauvinistic if you don't care about the millions of people your country kills? The Democrats are at best controlled opposition. While you are celebrating blue corporate shills winning the genocide on trans people in your country proceeds ever farther.

can i haz 3d filez rulez ?