I'm hearing a lot of similarities to my own story.

On the spectrum. Obsessive personality traits. Manic once I get an idea in my head that clicks. Fantisized about being female since adolescent. Super interested when I discovered it was an option to be trans in college. Took until my 40s to own it. Regret I didnt do something about it back then.

My plan last year was to start HRT this year. Like it was some gate I needed to pass through (obsessive personality). I never officially decided not to do it now that the year is ending, but I've found contentment without it after two years of deep exploration.

Like a half dozen wigs, few pairs of prosthetic breasts, more women's clothing in my wardrobe than the sum of all male clothing I've owned my whole adult life, like 50 pairs of heels (I really really fucking love heals), make up, galons of professional nail polish, laser hair removal, small fortune in GLP-1 meds to reach the body figure I wanted, etc, etc.

I don't know when the switch happened, but eventually the obsession with getting HRT fizzled out. I wear almost exclusively women's clothing today. Most of it passes as gender neutral, but its distinctly more feminine color pallets or the way it fits. Outside of professional settings I'll wear my beloved heals out. In safe spaces I'll go full cross dressed.

You know what? I'm happier not having to identify as one label or the other and stressing about this gate that needs to be crossed. I'm just me and that's enough. Anyways, just wanted to play devil's advocate here as I heard a lot of myself in your post. Journey before destination or some shit like that.

Best wishes with whatever you choose.

https://lawsuit.org/general-law/republicans-have-an-obsession-with-transgender-pornography/

I dont have any experience with any of these but you may find some options by searching for web3 or dapp storage solutions. Example best of list.

web3/dapps are an attempt at making fully decentralized web applications using blockchain and other decentralized technologies. Since storing large volumes of data on a blockchain isnt the best idea, projects like IPFS and others on the first link I shared emerged to fill the gap.

Supply and demand in dating social spaces, virtual or in person.

In person non-dating social interactions have been steadily declining.

When all the red pill shit first started coming out it was ironically more about self-improvement followed by pick up artist tacticts once you got your shit together.

Still misogynistic at the time and it just continues to get worse. Rather than put in the work to improve themselves, they'd rather go all handmaid's tale.

Have ADHD. I've been taking a GLP-1/GIP compounded injection for a year and it has done nothing for nicotine or poor impulse control shopping. If anything it made the shopping worse as clothes no longer fitting becomes a great excuse to shop. At least that's my experience.

Been on a GLP-1/GIP compounded injection for a year. Lost 90lbs.

I physically have a hard time overeating on fats/protiens. Like I want to vomit. Meat consumption is way down from before.

Simple carbs like starches and sugar I can overinduldge on but seem to get sick faster than before taking the medication.

It mostly helps with food related cravings but its not a silver bullet. I can still fallback to emotional eating under high stress and fluctuate +5 lbs with water retention. Its just much easier to recover.

I lost about 1/3 the weight on my own tracking everything. With the medication it tripled the rate of loss and I didn't need to track anymore. I'm much more able to trust my body and hunger signals developing a healthier relationship with food.

Yes I have several micro shorts/skirts. Just have to shop the female aisle.

I think the first season was a shit show due to covid or the writers strike (or both).

Canceled after 3 seasons.

Pandas/Polars is all I need in a Jupyter notebook to replace Excel. Its not even a contest if you know some python for doing any real work.

I concede Excel has a lower bearer to entry for teams composed of mixed technical abilities.

Sounds like one hell of a dopamine hit. Like the self-induced pressure from procrasting injected with steroids, topped with a drizzle of adrenaline, and dusted with the strongest speed humanity has to offer.