Bro don’t mention it. The humans might catch on to it. Did you see what they did to the fruitfly brain

It’s been a mixed bag. Some ups, some downs.

My relationship with my long-term partner has definitely suffered quite a bit from my malaise. I am doing my best to repair what was damaged from my lacking. She definitely helped me through a lot of the hardship and put aside some of her issues to help me through mine. She’s not suffering like I was, but that’s no reason to let her carry it all like she has been. I just hope I can be enough to improve her life in the same way she makes mine brighter.

On the working front, I was certain my current position was a dead end that made me miserable. I increased how many jobs I was applying to at night and committed to sending out at least 25 applications each month. I got plenty of interviews but never an offer, for almost 10 months. My motivation would come in waves, but I kept striving to do better each time. Eventually I ended up quitting after 9 months of this. I increased my pace of job applications, knowing I had 6 months to rely solely on my savings before I’d have to take a non-engineering position to pay the bills. I got to month four and was sweating bullets before I landed my current position. It’s not perfect, but my coworkers and boss actually seem to care for each other. It’s a demotion in terms of what I’m doing, but I see a path forward for what I could do here.

During my job search, I ended up applying for the robotics teacher position at my old high school. I got second place, but they created an assistant coach position for me to help out the team this upcoming year. I’m honestly so excited, I started seeing a therapist, and it was okay. I’m not entirely sure what it did, but maybe it will help later and I just can’t realize it yet. I stopped when I quit my last job and just started again last week with a new one. I’m not sure I mesh with this guy, but I’m willing to give it a try. I might also try seeing a few others to find someone who clicks.

I just finished a massive biography that took me forever to get through. I feel so satisfied, and I really enjoyed the new perspective I have after doing a deep dive.

Mentally, I still feel tired and am still struggling with a lack of motivation. I’m just trying to keep moving, but some days are easier than others.

The self-hate is still there. I don’t like who I am, but I can at least see someone I could become whom I do like. I guess I could see it before, but it felt like a mockery of who I was in the moment. Hopefully, one day I’ll have the wisdom of Iroh. For now, I’ll work on figuring out what’s best for the moment at hand.

I really appreciate all the comments on this post. They helped me, at a low point, realize I wasn’t as trapped as I felt in that moment.

This is a misunderstanding of radioactive material. The atoms already exist & they are already spread all throughout the world. Building a reactor allows us to harness the energy of atoms decaying in a useful way.
As for the end product France is able to recycle up to 96% of spent fuel. The remaining 4% is being prepped & placed back in the ground at a site they are currently building. If you want to read more this Stanford student wrote a well cited paper.
http://large.stanford.edu/courses/2024/ph241/friedman2/ Or you can read this this science insite article. https://scienceinsights.org/what-does-france-do-with-nuclear-waste/

Why not throw it into chatgpt to change the image from bitcoin to Ai? /s

We already tried that. It didn’t have the best results. :/

Am I a small minority who thinks smoking weed will be similar to smoking tobacco in 30 years

There are plenty of things America has done wrong but it’s a straw-man to say it’s only been bad. The Marshal plan is a clear example of America doing a clearly good thing even. Just cuz it’s a mess right now doesn’t mean it is always the case

The Swiss Family Robinson. My father read me a chapter each night & it was one of my fondest memories.

Dog walking or other skill based teaching/tasks. You might need some small things like poop bags or something else. In the past I did dog walking & that is easy to start. Then I expanded to helping train & other tasks around taking care of dogs. That’s just what I did but you can choose something else you like such as music lessons.

I’m just worried if I switch the effort of starting back up will be too much & it will be easier to just stop going. Is this normal to feel this way?

Can I ask how you managed to get started with getting help? I feel like it’s such a massive hill to get over to start.