What? It's a perfectly cromulent word. 
None of what I'm about to say is advice, just my experience. I'm an oldish person who's been dealing with this for decades. I lost a parent when I was a preteen and sort of slammed the brakes on my feelings as a way to cope.
I apologize in advance for the indelicate comparison I'm about to make, but I recently had my first experiences with psilocybin, and found that (at least for me) it acted as a sort of "emotional laxative". It didn't cause me to immediately break down and sob or anything, but over the following weeks I had brief moments where I actually felt some of these clogged-up emotions and was able to open up the release valve a bit.
Afterward, listening to certain emotionally-charged songs or certain types of cinematic scenes was occasionally enough to tip me over into a short crying jag. This would last a minute or two, then I'd suddenly be back to "normal", but with a strong sense of relief from getting some of that out of my system.
Actually that might shoot right past Skynet and go straight to AM from "I Have No Mouth".
Her Story. https://www.herstorygame.com/
"From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh, it disgusted me. I craved the strength and certainty of steel."
Mitty from Made In Abyss. (Link contains spoilers for those who care)
Reminds me of this Natural Habitat short.
The shark:

Retro game fans inconsolable. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Q*bert
I sometimes wonder what someone's reaction would be if you were to go back in time and be like "hey, I just listened to something you wrote being played 200-some-odd years after your death via technology you would never understand. shit slaps man, good job"
A Little Lad Who Loves Berries And Cream Green
That was 100% a "whoosh" on my part, had just rolled out of bed and brain wasn't firing on all cylinders yet.
Look at human history and you will see that every conflict can be settled if you are just willing to use words and nothing else.
An admirable sentiment, but I feel like you and I read very different history books.



