[–] 1 point 5 months ago (1 child)

I'm gonna be dead honest with you. The reason you think that high bodycount means that you're somehow fundamentally different as a person e.g. incapable of being a "housewife" is because you do not have a high bodycount yourself and its incomprehensible for you, when in reality it's really just not that big a deal.

No one with a high bodycount thinks of themselves as having a high bodycount. At one time all those people had a low bodycount and they were the same people then as they were after they had a high bodycount.

At most they're "sexually experienced", in gamer terms they're the people with 500 games in their steam library and to them the average person is kinda like the person who only plays F2P mobile gachas, so yeah they'll have higher standards but they also probably know what's good and what works.

None of this is inherently good or bad, it just is.

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  • [–] 16 points 5 months ago (6 children)

    I hate nu-trek because beyond the obvious shitty writing, lack of an ensemble cast and true standalone episodes, extremely lame and cheap special effects and just the way it is made (legacy series fitting into a canon rather than actual new events i.e. ENT) - its just very apolitical, bland and not very woke at all. TNG, DS9, ENT - all had real hard hitting stuff to say, stuff thats more relevant now than ever, and is always timeless.

    Disco has a nonbinary person just kinda be there, such enthralling commentary, wow! It's almost a self-parody y'know. Picard has the romulan refugee thing be kinda swept under the rug in favour of the ME3 synthetics vs organics vs giant space octopus doohickey plot, and then the 2nd season invents a new alternate universe that doesn't actually seem much different from the future picard itself portrays in the first season.

    There will never he anything quite like 'Far Beyond The Stars' in Trek again, sadly. Nor will there be a 'Who Mourns for Morn' for that matter, now we mourn for trek.

    That's okay by me though, All Good Things and all that, and especially so because For All Mankind took up the actual woke space sci-fi mantle, unsurprisingly so since it's made by Trek and Expanse alumni like RDM, Menosky, Okudas, Shankar etc.

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    i mean its a bit of an improvement. If the US keeps sliding into authoritarianism and obviously sponsoring anti-european agitation we should probably stop feeding them money and data.

    Mass asset sell-offs by these governments in the 80s to make boomers into petit bourgeoisie to flex on the soviets hasn't exactly left them flush with cash or assets.

    On top of that, the boomers now in charge hardly have the political will to even try to build anything in-house with existing free and/or open source software because they're under the impression that privatization will work again because it did for them.

    They can't or don't want to realize that the trick only works once and it inevitably creates an oligarchy that can and will outsizeably influence the country's politics, which inevitably leads to some guy who is able to ride a grievance wave during elections right into office where he becomes president, gathers enough influence from the oligarchs to purge the disloyals and consolidate power, creating a fascist state - a union of corporate and government power against the people like what happened in Russia and whats slowly happening in the US.

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  • [–] 7 points 6 months ago (1 child)

    I say this as i take my pharmaceutical mass-produced amphetamine, factory made plastic sheets lined with artificial hormones that maintain my estrogen exactly where it should be, put on my makeup, my clothes of perfect fit made by machines in asia consisting of synthetic fibers, take out my semiconductor magic device connected by radio waves, tap on it in an alphabet of a language i wasn't raised in, follow the instructions of the sights and colours of the organic light emitting diode god and head out onto concrete walkways lined with skyscrapers to get food from a market originating in a cuisine half a world away in a country I've never been, sold by a second gen immigrant who finds it a bit icky as she whispers in a tongue i do not know and never will, to pay with currency i earn pretending my job isn't pointless to other people with pointless jobs from the sanctity and warmth of my ex-office building renovation.

    Meanwhile people in nature died of diarrhea and shit. Typhus. The anticiv rightoid chuds want us to die of preventable diseases. Steve Irwin was killed by a random Lovecraftian freak himself lol.

    Modernity, technology is all good, nature is a canvas for humanity's hubris and it's a good thing it's mostly gone as a concern for us. Capitalism is the real problem.

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  • [–] 2 points 6 months ago* (last edited 6 months ago)

    Yeah, my very former classmates seem bewildered when I mention books we read for GCSE Literature. My grades weren't good at all compared to said former classmates.

    Its kind of shocking, do they just memorize stuff like robots for a few months then flush that memory?

    I could never do that, if i learned something, I likely still at least remember learning it, snd if i didn't then i still remember not understanding it.

    I can't hunker down and just memorize or somehow learn something without actually processing it and learning it proper, doesn't matter how important, but then again I was later diagnosed with ADHD.

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    I had a comically bad day yesterday, like dropping things, almost lost my keys down the drain on the sidewalk, spilled soup at the store near a makeup section, almost tore my pants, got back from the store only to find out I was out of TP, etc.

    It was more funny than anything else, like so much random trivial bad luck in one day is like something out of some 90s Tom Hanks comedy.

    But there was one thing that actually annoyed me - on my way back from the store on my grocery trip, my phone suddenly went from a healthy 7% to 0% and died. I was stuck with no music for the remainder of the walk back.

    Soooo I was forced to listen to the sound of well - nothing at all basically.

    Just birds chirping, wind blowing, leaves rustling, all as I walked the same path I walk all the time and see the same things I've seen hundreds of times, just waiting to get home.

    Don't get me wrong I love where I live and everything, it's a really cool city with good pedestrian infrastructure, I almost never even get close to a car and it's not some smelly euro village either, but seeing the same things I've already seen and having no stimuli at all, it wasn't that big a deal but it was unpleasant.

    That got me thinking - I sometimes see folks not wearing earphones outside, and I've heard on more than one occasion from some acquaintances that they don't listen to music outside, and I wonder - why's that?

    Why would you choose to do that?

    And, what do y'all like, do, exactly? How do you deal with the monotony of your grocery trips or things like that when you don't even have music on? Do you just never get bored of walking the same roads/neighborhoods w/e day after day?

     

    After almost a year of moving cities for the first time in 3 years and some of the highest highs of life, I crashed, reached burnout, some bouts of sads and self-doubt, exacerbated by the weariness with the world and the consequences for mine and my loved ones' future prospects and generally increased cynicism towards everything.

    Needless to say - hard times. But last week I've finally been sufficiently functional to partake in the one hobby that stuck with me despite ADHD, the one thing that has never not brought me joy and catharsis and it is making music. Feels great to be back.

     

    Hey so I just upgraded from 1.139 to 1.144.1 because the mobile app would lock up the phone and wasn't able to load any images anymore for some reason.

    Thought I was on the latest version but ig not?

    The upgrade went ok, I kept my customized compose and .env file disregarding all instructions and used docker-compose pull to update (why do I have to do that, by the way? Why isn't docker stop and docker rm and docker system prune followed by docker compose up -d enough?) and I'm having an odd issue on the Immich mobile app from F-Droid - version 1.143 running on Pixel 3XL, Android 12.

    If I enable 'Prefer remote images' I cannot zoom into the image at all. Not with 'load original images' enabled and not with 'load preview images' enabled and not with either or both disabled.

    Even with 'prefer remote images' disabled, I still cannot zoom properly. I can double tap to zoom into the image at a fixed zoom level and double tap to zoom out, and I can pinch to zoom to a variable level, but the normal double tap and drag down/up gesture that's used in e.g. Google maps or Google photos or fossify gallery apps doesn't work. Anyone else have this issue?

    Figured I'd ask here just in case someone has had a similar issue and it turned out to be user error before opening an issue on their GitHub.

     

    I've been looking for a job and jesus it's really gotten to me. Half the listed jobs are either the big tech companies like meta/aws etc. or defense contractors like lhm, northop-grummann or even dodgier glowie orgs. I'm pretty sure when such a large chunk of the economy is fucking defense contractors that it shows in the job market for something utterly unrelated (IT), that's fascism. Then I see they're selling off the UK military to palantir. Great.

    It wasn't like this before. There were your goofy startups and your B2B SaaS companies, the latter I work for and it's been going under for years because it simply was never a good idea.

    But that's just the straw that broke the camel's back because it was so real in a way reading news stories on the internet just isn't, it wasn't just a fact, it was an element of my life now, no different from the weather outside.

    The absolute onslaught of anti-intellectualism, it's like a virus tearing through the population, a psychological blight, much worse than any coronavirus could be. The hypernormalization of it all and the sheer whiplash of the overton window has even got me shifting rightwards, through sheer osmosis and pressure.

    Every time I hear my coworkers mention "grok" I get like a reaction, like "oh, that's the internet thing" and the compartmentalization of brain rot falters, I'm forced to acknowledge it is in fact - real, that what is going on is in fact real, and not just something I can laugh at. Being queer and an immigrant it's frankly shocking I've even been able to maintain this defense mechanism this long. My very future is on the chopping block, always has been, but maybe the city walls just can't stand the seige anymore.

    But while I can take care of myself, I worry about the world, about others, distant and close alike. I don't need everyone to believe what I believe or align with what I think, but I feel insane at times because it seems like even the simplest rational thoughts are few and far between, everyone seems unhinged or some sort of insane grifter. It makes me want to grab the world and shake it like "why can't you just be normal".

    And then there's people who plunge headfirst into the hypernormalization, realigning with the status quo, maintaining a pretense of continuity, when it is clear there's absolutely no real belief beneath. The pretense just intensifies to compensate.

    Nonetheless I don't think there's much I can do, I don't know where to even start, I'd happily fight against the world that's coming but I can't do it alone, and it sure feels like I'm pretty much alone.

    The burden of our time sucks, is all. Anybody got some good strategies to disconnect for a bit, so I can recuperate my psych defenses? Smell the roses and all?

    EDIT: thanks everyone who responded. Think I'll check out of Lemmy for a bit, I'll make sure to read your insights and experiences when I get back. Thanks, and be well.

     

    As a disclaimer, I'm not actually anti-AI, but tons of slop is made with it. It's the same as those TTS Reddit reading videos from back in the day or any other shitty trend from the last 10 years.

    I'm old enough to know to dismiss internet noise as vastly out of touch with the actual silent majority of internet users, so this moral panic over slop to me was just zoomers who grew up on reaction videos thinking that wasn't slop to the folks who came before, but I was on a train, looking around, I saw like 4/5 people I could see were on their phones, watching clearly AI-generated content, on TikTok or something similar based on the UI elements, one of them even had it on speaker for some reason.

    All of them seemed around my age in the mid-20s.

    Thing is, I don't really understand it, what's the appeal? I'm not asking about being on your phone, but specifically short-form videos about nothing specific.

    When I looked it up, lots of talk about addiction and dopamine loops, but I can't relate to that, I assume this maybe has something to do with me having ADHD and the theory that my dopamine system doesn't really work "normally".

    I tried watching TikTok before, but it definitely wasn't stimulating for me, I got bored pretty quick. If I was on a train and really bored looking out the window listening to music, I'd whip out a Wikipedia page or read the comments on Lemmy or look up a random question on my mind.

    Why? Well in my experience - text is a lot easier to consume you can consume more information faster, hence to me - it's more stimulating. Works both ways too - It's just easier to express yourself quickly and clearly in text than by speaking. Even typing on my phone feels a helluva lot less taxing and more stimulating than speaking/listening.

    It's not like I don't watch videos, I do have videos on in the background sometimes when I'm tidying up or whatever, where I prefer long-form stuff so it just fades into the background and stays consistent and non-distracting. If I watch a movie it's often something I kinda need to mentally work myself up for. I definitely wouldn't be able to pay attention to a video playing on my phone.

    So my question is - what's so stimulating about this type of stuff in particular?

    I want to hear about your experience so I can understand it better.

    I'd like to understand it, because otherwise it feels like most people are weird aliens, driven by forces beyond my comprehension, and it's not nice :(

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