It would have been my sister's birthday today. I am going to go out and have some sashimi in the sun
because I need to say this but it doesn't need reading
Fuck cancer. I miss you every day. The world misses you. You'd be proud of your kids - they are such beautiful humans. I can't believe I am about to turn the age you were when it happened. I'm scared. I miss you.
Well that's the purge done.
Only in the last 3 years has this happened.
I get down here, first night crash early, second night wild restlessness, fever dreams / sweats, it's like I've eaten something wrong running to the loo several times, third night all gone, good sleep and everything is back to normal.
Weird. Only happens when there's no one here, no stress, same diet. It's like a weight is lifted, body spazzes out for a day or two then it just stops. Every time.
Missed bros b'day dinner on fri. Very much a tradition, ol' boy always books a restaurant and it's frowned upon if you miss one. This was basically "fuck it I need the purge" don't care who sulks.
Called the p's last night expecting the sulk. Nothing. Was speaking to ol' girl and she was not impressed with bro (arrogant, speaking over). She's a bit more honest about some things in her mental state. Think ol' boy sees that now too. Have been accused many times of driving a wedge in the family by avoiding bro/sil. Not any more though. Finally put to rest (which is a relief, was second guessing myself way too long w/ that).
Sort of a 4 in 1 win. Purge, no shitty dinner, no sulk, now no perceived wedge driving. All I had to do was nothing for 3 days. Amazing.
SIL's family are here on tues. (15 of them) to see her baby for the first time so that is a dinner I'm happy to go to (they're good fun and it'll be nice to see them meet the new addition).
Anyway this morning's sunrise:
Don't tell your nonna I'm eating several-days-old pesto on this pasta. The staleness is punishment enough.
Being told I canโt send or receive email because Onedrive is full and being leaned on to upgradeโฆ
I already copied all the files over to a separate folder previously but just to be sure I did it again so I can drag that one onto a hard drive. Deleted some old recordings and photos I had backups of from Onedrive to free up storage, and unlinked the pc.
I donโt like how everything is a subscription model and in the cloud now. I really need to get the rest of my stuff out of cloud onto my computer and then onto separate physical storage.
Iโm going for a belated market run. Does anyone want anything?
Potato from the cookers house YL is staying at.
My first thought about the Correspondents Dinner thing is that they faked it....that feels wrong and depressing.
Okay I think I've jacked upy sleep pattern again. Shiiiet. Time to coffee myself up and stay up all day, and reset my sleep tonight.
Or look for night shift jobs loooool
Day 3 or maybe 4 of The Snottening, its a bit hard to tell. Feeling a bit better this morning. I think the nice weather is helping. The hanky tsunami is washed and hanging on the line, much to the dismay of the local maggies who are pretending to be scared of the flapping cloth. They demanded rolled oats reparations for the insult of flappy clothy bits hanging on their personal perching line.
the coughing has stopped
not so tired
but still a bit congested and headachy around the face area
can't wait to be better
The Snot she has arrived. And the dishwasher has ants.
I was planning my day around my dentist appointment, starting to calculate the details of when I need to be ready and how long it will take to get there - then realised it is actually Sunday today and the appointment is tomorrow ๐คฃ
It seems like the kids' laptop has developed a very spicy pillow. To the extent I can't open the case to look at it. I'm hoping I can pry this thing open because whilst it's from 2012 I'd rather save it from becoming ewaste. I just put Wacky Wheels on this thing for them!
so Miss Seagoon is having a game afternoon, we are playing gloomhaven
reminds me of monopoly , with all the cards and such
I feel bad but this game , I just don't care
it's not my jam, I like simple games that require me to think up a strategy
not a complicated game that gives me strategies
no one can give me the aim of the game ๐ I assume it's world domination
I'd like to make some nacho cheese again but I'm not in the mood to grate 250g of cheese. Is there any way to get close by cutting it up or using a different technique? I'm thinking maybe a potato peeler?
Goodnight everyone
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Calm down Battery-San!
But seriously, it's impressive a battery from 2011 lasted so long. I should have taken it out when it stopped holding charge instead of leaving it in hoping for the best
Hello DT people!!! Long time no speak, how is everyone?
caaaaat
(I know it looks like the harness is ridiculously tight and must be cutting off his circulation, but I promise he's fine! He's not chonky, just a super long haired flooooof. That also means when the floof is displaced, he looks a little lopsided)
Cat brag
I seriously think I won the cat lottery with this little guy. I don't think I socialised him enough when he was young, he's pretty scared of visitors and absolutely terrified of tradespeople. But he's so, so confident and easygoing around me. If I leave him alone enough to sleep, he will let me do pretty much anything. He's also a big fan of water! And he genuinely loves belly rubs and being carried around. The least cat-like cat I've ever met
Caaaaat in triplicate! (also a request)
On that last note: I do come with a request: does anyone have any reccos for a cat or animal rescue? I've looked around, and it kind of seems like the common consensus is that pretty much any shelter in Melbourne is fine. I've been to that cat protection society and quite like them. Looking into getting a second cat later this year, he's a pretty playful sort of a cat, so I think he might benefit from a friend.
Also, I'm particularly interested in a shelter or rescue that does some level of personality matching. Although he's quite confident around me, I have seen that he is not a fighter. He is a bolter. He doesn't even hiss at the vet, he just tries to slink away and hide under the examination table. So I don't think he would cope well with a strong personality or rough play fighter
So, keen for reccs. I know most people here are cat people, so figured you'd all have thoughts. Super appreciate any suggestions! I'm still in the inner west, but willing to travel
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