it's been a rough week for like.. around 450 weeks.

Fri: Its been a long week and I havent had takeaways in forever I'm going to get takeaways.

sat: Im never getting takeaways again

Next Fri: Its been a long week and I havent had takeaways in forever I'm going to get takeaways.

This is how I decline into drinking too much. I'm currently on a good path though.

I think this is buy design. Capitalism zaps your energy by forcing you to pay the bills and leaves no energy for fun. Lazy fun means consuming. Food, drugs, tech, media, etc.

Rough Week 523: The little treat is now two whole cheesecakes. I should feel ashamed, but I feel nothing without my little treat.

^This is why my pants don't fit anymore..

Repeat after me, "food is not a reward."

Don't reward your kid's good behavior with food, you're not training a dog.

The weekend does count. And don't call me Shirley

If alcohol is your treat, this is how alcoholism or alcohol abuse starts.

It gets even worse. My little treat is alcohol.

That feels quite sad, honestly… I wish you all to find fulfillment and happiness without the need for sugar supplements

Unless you know more than ChatGPT, I've earned this fentanyl drip.

meanwhile

We all need to be reinforced. That doesn’t change when we become adults. If the little treat isn’t working you are being punished too much or need a different little treat. If the little treat hurts you, such as alcohol, try to find a functionally similar treat that doesn’t. Mine was Boba and fancy coffee for a while.

Maybe deeper richer rewards and the paradigms of thought that support them might reproduce the incentive structure of capital a little less?

Werthers original is my go to. Sweet, slightly salty. And lasts like 5 mins in your mouth, by the time it's dissolved in your mouth your are already hopefully in your next flow state. And only 20kcal per candy

People don't have holidays anymore these days?

"It's just this once" every time.

I find that people don't really answer the question "why not?", they just utter the phrase before doing what they wanted to do, lol.