I'm also getting up there in years, and this isn't true.

But what is true is that time spent doing what you love is exactly what life is about, so why are you looking for returns on it?

It's all a box of cables

I dunno, that love affair I had with self destructive suicidal behavior back in my teens can stay all the fuck over there.

Turning 50 next year, I've never gotten back into anything. My childhood was spent learning the piano and I always hated it and still do. My teenage years were spent doing sports my back and knees no longer support. My young adulthood was spent gaming, going to the movies, watching TV, listening to music, and doing fun drugs with my friends. I spent thousands on pc gaming, consoles, handheld emulation, board games, sim racing gear, Magic: the Gathering, headphones, and home theater equipment to understand I did not like those things, I liked hanging out with my friends. I dropped all of my collecting hobbies (sneakers, headphones, watches) with no regrets. stopped driving for fun on canyon roads, and un-modded my car and stuck it on high mileage all-seasons.

Not great with new hobbies either. Exercise equipment is mostly unused. Camera hasn't been used since vacation. I just got a couple balls of yarn and some knitting needles and am finding it very stressful as I make mistakes and repeatedly start over.

I wish the language I learned as a child would come back to me