wake up and smell the cortisol (who are we kidding we know you were already awake).

I’m definitely like this until I hit burnout, which happened years ago, now. Then everything is urgent, but I can’t get it done. Or started. Only thought about..

For the first time in my life (as far as I can remember) I’m finding out what it feels like to not have cortisol raging through my system 24/7, and man..

I can’t feel my heart pounding in my chest, nor have I had palpitations, my hands and feet aren’t freezing cold and numb, I don’t have a tense jittery ache in my abdomen all the time, my abdominal muscles aren’t constantly tense, my pulse is slower, my breathing more calm.. also just on the depression front, I have not cried since starting them! (my life has been… rough… this year, hence giving in and trying them)

Is this how other people experience the world? I should have accepted the antidepressants years ago. I’m not even to the point where these are supposed to be working yet, it’s only been 5 days, and I feel better than I have in decades.

Spite is a great motivator for me :)

This is the only way I've ever been able to get anything done. I'm paying for it now though. Not only does it not work anymore, but the damage to my brain from the constant cortisol is extensive. I recommend using healthier coping mechanisms.