I’m definitely like this until I hit burnout, which happened years ago, now. Then everything is urgent, but I can’t get it done. Or started. Only thought about..

For the first time in my life (as far as I can remember) I’m finding out what it feels like to not have cortisol raging through my system 24/7, and man..

I can’t feel my heart pounding in my chest, nor have I had palpitations, my hands and feet aren’t freezing cold and numb, I don’t have a tense jittery ache in my abdomen all the time, my abdominal muscles aren’t constantly tense, my pulse is slower, my breathing more calm.. also just on the depression front, I have not cried since starting them! (my life has been… rough… this year, hence giving in and trying them)

Is this how other people experience the world? I should have accepted the antidepressants years ago. I’m not even to the point where these are supposed to be working yet, it’s only been 5 days, and I feel better than I have in decades.