I'm in that sweet spot where I'm less happy than I would be if my brain wasn't damaged/defective, but not as happy as I would be if the damage/defect was much more severe!

#Winning! 😮‍💨

Personally, I'm about ready to start an n=1 human trial into controlled IQ/EQ/Mental capability reduction.

Just gotta settle on the right poison to take in small doses over time. Not lead though, I rather not attain contentment by turning into what I detest.

how do you get a good doctor?

I know from my own personal experience that this is partially true 😁

As in my brain DOES function many times better with meds than without, but I'm still far from optimally functioning and have made my peace with that lol

If you are willing to jump through hoops to get them, and then cycle though a bunch that make you gain weight and lose your sex drive.

No thanks. I'd almost rather be dead.

I'm definitely depressed but I still do things. I don't really quite understand why I do them though. Inertia?