i give myself like two minutes to ruminate, and either i come up with a specific actionable thing to bear in mind for the future or it was probably fine anyways.

Practice makes perfect friend, the more practice you get the less often it happens

Or social anxiety. Perhaps both 🤷🏻

Not everything is autism. Half of internet "autism" is normal human behavior, sometimes turned up to 8 out of 10.

I think a little of both is ideal

I feel I have hit the later, but I do get the occasional cringe attack when I remember.

It's like the Pokemon of social mistakes, gotta collect them all.

Jokes aside

Socialization is hard AF and only gets easier (and more fun) with practice. Think of it as any other skill, no one starts out good at it, no can improve at it without practice, and there's gonna be some hiccups along the way.

Will you become a masterful artist overnight? No.

Will you become a masterful carpenter overnight? No.

Will you master the art of conversation overnight? Also (and unsurprisingly) no.

We all make mistakes when learning and practicing skills, the hardest part is not letting those little mistakes eat us alive.

We all only get so many sunrises on this little mud ball suspended in a sun beam, and in 100 years no one is gonna remember your little social faux pas you have on your journey to learning social skills. But you know what will be remembered? Our positive impact on others, and the only way to get there is by making a few mistakes along the way.