It took me a long time to figure this out but - would you judge a friend for having kinks? If it was someone else, not you, who was into whatever this is, would you treat them how you are treating yourself?

Think of yourself as a friend, don't judge. If you aren't wanting something truly non consensual, don't judge yourself. Enjoy what you enjoy, you probably are not the only one who does.

Now - having said all that, I'm assuming that you really do enjoy what you enjoy. There are situations where you get sort of dragged along by an algorithm, not something coming from your own desire. In that case sure, maybe de-escalate some and see if you get more enjoyment that way. But still, don't judge. You did not build that algorithm.