Your anger won't magickally heal because you get a trophy, bro. You gotta do your spiritual work, which is work, that which will disentangle you from those traumas and emotions. I know what it's like being scarred on the inside. I'm still damaged, but I've done a helluva lot to heal, and the more you choose to let go of that hot coal through the act of forgiveness, the less it burns you. Forgiveness is not a single act, it is many acts over time. You have a knot in your soul. Unentangle yourself through skillful intention-setting, for it is your intention that steers the mechanism that results in how you are bound to your Karma.

Karmic entanglement = quantum entanglement