yeah i expect to die alone. i have no close family, just relatives who kind of tolerate me but think I'm disturbed because I am not a Standard American Male. Also can't seem to find any romantic partners that last, just ones that hate me for not being a a doctor or finance bro of their dreams.

hopefully just drop dead one day in the woods doing what i love from a heart attack, and not wasting away mentally from alzheimers, which is my other most likely fate.

my grand parents died while sleeping. my dad died in a hospital choking to death from fluid in his lungs and heart failure, but not before letting me know what a disappoint I was to him. he was a piece of shit human being.