Death before detransition (or never having the chance to), at least that was how it felt for me.

I didn't do DIY because it sounded spooky but turns out, it's literally just like the official route, just without all the gatekeeping and information. For informing you'd best consult transfem science (and transmasc, transby science if that exists), or a GP you trust, or someone who also does it.

Honestly if I'd known that I'd have done this so much sooner. Even if as trial only for three months (up until then everything should be generally reversible), it'd have been worth.

But yeah, that sounds like transphobe island indeed.