Damn I actually didn't think about this a lot...

When I was a kid, my favorite color was green and my favorite animal... I remember it being turtles

Cuz they can just hide from all dangers... they always have a "home"... where they are safe...

Being an immigrant and growing up in an emotionally unstable household... I never felt like I had a "home"

Like... neither in context of country... or in the context of my "home" vs school vs someplace to go to... like the library or a friend's house...

Like... when it's time for school... I'm like ah fuck, this again (cuz of bullies and authoritarian teachers and classwork shit...)

Then when it's time to go home... I'm like: oh no, yesterday we have a whole argument at home and stuff were thrown around and a few bowls and plates were broken, I kinda feel scared

And I don't have any close frienda where I could just go to their place and chill out...

And the outside world felt scary to me to I didn't have like a runaway "base" in the woods or something...

So I kinda liked turtles lol...

Just retreat to inside the shell when there is conflict...

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For some time I also liked monkeys because Curious George... (also mandela effect time: but pretty sure it had a tail didn't it?)

At one point, it was sheeps/goats... because 喜洋洋与灰太郎 (it's a Chinese Cartoon I remember watching as a kid)

Some other animals I liked at some point:

I liked Owls because it was the first nocturnal animal I learned of...

Pandas because I'm from China...

Frogs/Toads... idk why... maybe cuz its amphibious

And now I have a cat... probably the most useful animal... gets rid of mice