there are usually local LGBT+ and trans support groups you can go to - the trans support groups are usually full of early transitioners and people whose egg just cracked, so you might find some similar people there, or at least people going through similar hurdles

you might also look for a therapist who is gender-informed and works with trans patients on gender dysphoria - that might make it easier for you to feel safe

but ultimately, you just can't really expect to feel fully safe, part of transition is that extreme vulnerability and putting one foot in front of the other towards transition even though it feels like you're going to die if you do

and yeah, moving might complicate the situation, but it's just a temporary setback and hopefully you will find a way to access HRT in the new country

Good luck with your struggles - just know you aren't alone. Feel free to DM me anytime 🫶