https://genderdysphoria.fyi/en/biochemical-dysphoria

It doesn't really matter if the explanation is true, but the experience is something that many of us go through. The experience that we feel like empty zombies and that after HRT we finally feel real.

At some point after starting HRT I had days where I started liking what I saw in the mirror (and seeing a woman) despite knowing that I objectively do not pass or anything like that. It's not constant for me, but I have more good days than bad days. Liking what you see is partially gonna be a mental thing, and that's something HRT might do for you or it might need therapy or something else.

I'm not gonna promise that these things will happen for you, but I hope they will.

Hope you will feel better soon 🫂