Yes, this. I didn't really suffer dysphoria until realising I was trans. What I noticed was that I didn't fit socially with men, and because I belonged to that group, I felt alienated from women, esp as I for older (I'm 50), but historically women have always been my close friends. But since realising that some people are trans and that seems to include me, then I've realised how transition steps made me feel good. But then also came the Oh shit, I don't look like a woman, this is awful.

I'm still struggling to accept it.