If I just drive straight north to try to beg for asylum, I will die of heat stroke in my car which does not have working AC. I will likely get pulled over, as my car is not registered and has a piece of plastic hanging off of its side. I don’t have the money to purchase gas.

Walking would also probably lead to death from heat stroke. I would also likely be arrested due to my states hatred of the homeless/vagrancy laws. In jail, I would likely experience sexual assault as a trans person if not death.

My plan last year was to work as much as I could to save money to leave. This did not work out, because I cannot afford to fix my car, to have health insurance.

Where I am at I can afford the rent. My new job has a food pantry so I have options to not starve. I have a reputation which helps me get work opportunities.

I do work on helping others. It is killing me and I am suffering due to retaliation but I am doing my damnedest to make sure that no children experience what happened to me. I tell anyone who will listen. I try to protect others.

I give and give and give. There aren’t “communities” for people like me here. Even the most left leaning people here are at heart conservatives.

I am just going to keep going until I can’t. When I take my final actions they will be precise.

Such a wonderful place!

Seeking out mental health services six months ago got me physically assaulted and cost me a job, so I have PTSD from my ex husband torturing me, the child rape facility I was sent to as a teenager also torturing me, and the hospital I was sent to as an adult for daring to ask for help beating the shit out of me and calling me “fucking retarded!” I wish I could die, but instead of death I’ll just keep yelling at people so hopefully no one else will get to spend their nights slowly drinking themselves to death to make their brain not feel like it’s on fire.