JFC
Then move. Go away. Yes you can, it's just a matter of what you're willing to give up. Walk to a different state if you have to, because at this point even homelessness sounds better than what you're experiencing.
I feel for you, I really do, but your life -in part- is what you make it. Yeah, life throws lemons at you, but its up to you to respond to that and make it something. You have the choice of staying there, brooding and complaining, or you can do something.
Join a protest group? Find like-minded people to hang out with? Maybe star driving somewhere, leave your state? Whatever you do, do something, don't just accept the status quo you're in now. Anything is better than just being miserable
You have only one life, make it fucking matter. Make a differece for yourself, then once you're okay, go in and make a difference for others. If not that, start first with others and that difference for yourself will come.