This is an old picture, I'm working up hunger to cook burgers today but the problem is the hungrier you get the less energy you'll have.
I got some beef and horse that I'm gonna mix, add a little beef fat to make a nice 75/25 mix i think or 80/20.
I want to eat to have energy to cook what a paradox
I'm sorry about the depression; I very much understand that!
Try googling "csa [your country]" or "community supported agriculture [your country]". I did a very quick search on each of the three Nordics, and they each have some efforts underway. For example
Norway, 2023: "NIBIO researcher Anna Birgitte Milford has analysed the response forms from 390 cooperative owners in 45 different CSAs in Norway."
Finland: has at least one CSA called Rekola Farm (they've been operating for over 50 years), and there's apparently a Finnish CSA umbrella association. Their posts are mostly in Finnish so I don't understand many of the details, but the group is called Suomen Kumppanuusmaataloudet ry, and they seem to have a decent-but-not-overwhelming Facebook group going.
Sweden: andelsjordbruksverige.se says "It is estimated that around 100 CSA farms exist in Sweden today although there are no official statistics."
Anyway ... I don't know if any of the farms are anywhere near you (though check: some places have local drop-off locations, or will bring it to the farmers market), I don't know if the price will work for you, I don't know if you'll decide it's too much effort. But there may be options near you.
If you do decide to get a share, you might see if you know anyone who might split it with you. The first year or so can be overwhelming.
Whatever you decide, I hope you have a wonderful life, with much joy and less depression :)