There's a sizeable diaspora of russians in my country. There was an anti-regime protest a few years ago where many were seen destroying their russian passport.

Nobody was against their position. Russians are not by default feared in any way, here. I hope that is the same in many other places.

If you feel you are not well where you are, leave. Nobody owes anything to their country; it's the opposite. Strive for a different life elsewhere. Don't be afraid to speak of what drove you out. Teach others where it went wrong, so they can prevent it in their own land.

You are not a traitor. You are not a country's property.

If I was in your shoes I'd probably wrestle with the same questions and doubt as you do.

If you don't take action you'll forever wonder what could have happened if you tried.

If you take action and even if it does not work out you will know. You'll have more peace of mind at least.

Leaving the country doesn't mean you can't do anything against the regime in Russia. You can still support people in Russia e.g. who help victims of the regime, no matter where you are. You want to be free and safe, and that is valid. If a friend came to you and raised these wishes, would you tell them they are a dick for dreaming of a better life?

People may have strong negative opinions of Russia, but I don't think most people attach that to the people of Russia. If you left, that would mean that you do not agree with how Russia is being run, which would put you on the same side as those who aren't fans of Russia.

That being said, it's a whole lot more difficult to leave the country than most people would have you believe. There's a good chance that the US is going to become more like Russia, and I don't like it, but I don't see any possible way that I could leave if it does.

There is a quote by Arthur Ashe that I refer to often because in the face of overwhelming personal adversity it keeps my head on the right track, and I think it may help you as well:

“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.”

I travel full-time and I definitely feel more free and protected abroad then i ever did in the US. It's healthy for you to want a better life or to distance yourself from an abusive government.

Let me know if you have any questions,I've been traveling for 15 years and can explain exactly how to live abroad easily and comfortably.

Assuming you're queer or otherwise targeted, we've been on the frontline our whole lives. It's ok to take a break and focus on yourself. Don't feel guilty for leaving.

Saying this as someone who fled the US

First thing - regardless of the decision, your internal attitude might be different - you can equally be happy that you stayed or sad that you left or the opposite. Those are your internal bearings unrelated to the action itself.

If I would be you, I would leave Russia, sis.

Ongoing country dissolutions are too massive events to be bothered about by a single person + Russian chance for a positive societal change was lost a long time ago (I stuff like unrests of 2012) and the main portion of society decided to not support the protests.

Next events are logically will be much more nasty than any peaceful demonstrations, and being next to them is hazardous.

You are young, and mobile, why do you have spend your life on the problem created by the previous generation?

Leave for a bit, let them sort it out themselves, and come back later if you miss it. The best in moving somewhere is that you can try, and always come back if you regret.