Being a failure as a parent. I do my best to live in-the-moment these days, which can be difficult to do. But in those moments when your child amazes you with a new skill they learned on their own, it gives me a bit of hope that I wasn’t so bad.

Marriage breaking apart, slightly irrational fear, because we are kinda managing significant libido differences(my fault), but the fear is still there.

It's not like I'm only going to mess up my or my partners life, we have 2 kids as well and they're going to be the ones suffering the most. So if i give up fighting/trying/putting in the effort or don't even do it enough, ill be failing a rather big evolutionarily determined goal for any living being. Basically failing my main duty and one of the biggest reasons I'm still alive and somewhat functional adult.

I just overlay reasoning upon this fear, probably just suppressing it.

People. I have social anxiety and am an introvert.

How do I deal with it? Empathy and understanding. By being able to imagine myself in another persons place, the unreasoning fear receeds and I can find a basis to make a connection.

So strangely I am an introvert who is good at making connections with people. Social settings still exhaust me though.

Becoming homeless in old age. I ignore it. Admittedly it's possible, even probable, that I'll end up homeless when I'm older. But I'm middle aged now, and can only focus on the more immediate future.

I'm afraid of being honest with my feelings when I perceive that that might be difficult for other people.

Don't really have a good coping strategy for that yet.

Black widow spiders. And I smash the fuck out of them. I almost feel sorry for them now. But fuck ‘em.

Death

By taking care of my health, even more