Nervous system says any demand is a threat

It's agonizing. I want to do the things, like say bake bread but I'm not moving. Why am I not moving? Body? Body!!

I’m doing that now

My issue right now is specifically task initiation. I've done therapy and I'm on two new medications that are helping, but god damn it's so hard to start a task without body doubling.

For decades!

Reminds me of an old joke. "My parents took me to the doctor because they thought I had mononucleosis. It turns out I was just lazy".

excruciatingly so. paycheck endingly so.

Yes, I just had a conversation with myself about this very thing three minutes ago.

daily

I do, yes

Daily.