Dissociation is bitch, ain't it?

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Results may vary if you're not trans, but estrogen and spiro unlocked a lifetime of tears.

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That awful feeling when all you want to do is let the tears out but you just can't.

It sounds strange that I have to be in the right place and with the right company (or lack thereof) to be able to let the tears fall, but I do. It depends in the kind of tears that are trying to flow though. If it's tears from my CPTSD the company and place matters a massive amount.

Sometimes music can help

"Cemetery Gates" by Pantera is often one that my brain craves when I need to let tears fall. It also helps if the music is loud and hard enough I feel it in my chest. "Lonely Day" by System of A Down is another one.

Sometimes I can let them fall by reminding myself that I'm safe where I'm at and that I'm far (in time and pace) from the traumatic shit.

Sometimes it's tears in the shower until the water runs cold.

One of the biggest things that helped me though in actually letting them fall was getting quitting drinking.

I've been sober now for 7 years.

It's the longest I've ever been sober.

I'm pretty sure that's one result of depression

Antidepressants did this to me. I had been on them since I was twelve, weened myself off them at 33. My emotional center has been gradually waking up ever since. Being able to cry when I need to is such a blessing.

When you meet that person, and feel them crying, reach out and let them know that it's okay to cry--even if you don't understand why they're sad. Encourage them to feel and express their emotions.

Always works for me: Watch a few movies, even if it's not suposed to be super emotional, there's bound to be some tear jerkin in there.

In fact, I usually cry with movies that are the polar opposite.

that's because you need someone else to listen to your crying, otherwise there's no point in making any noise ... and listening means understanding here, so that's what you'd have to find first.

For me it's Gone Away by The Offspring or 3 a.m. by Matchbox 20 that can always bring the tears out.