3 months sober. im so bored.
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You can't escape reality through alcoholism, you merely become a part of why it's shitty.
Aye, you feel good in the moment, but you've robbed your own future. Either just with a hangover, or a life you hate waking up to.
the future is shitty either way
I feel it's kinda like suicide in a way, my uncle died of causes related to alcoholism when he was 30ish, my mom and grandma and that were debasted ofc, I was not too close to him tho. Besides, it probably lead him to having an even lower quality of life anyways.
Not like I can blame anyone like this or like that or whatever. And I cannot say anything about making your own future worse when I've wanted it to be worse. I just idk. I just feel like saying it doesn't matter is not fair either talking about alcoholism or not because it sometimes makes a difference, even if a small one, technically you can go into nihilism and all but yea.
But mean not like I can tell you what to do or think or whatever yea.
I have a feeling a lot of opiate "overdoses" are similarly suicides. There's a point where you can't imagine quitting and you think you might as well just take more one day when you have it.
You might not be specifically trying to die a specific night but you probably accept that one of those days you will die and you're not fighting it.
It’s morally difficult, of course. There’s a reason we count these among deaths of despair, because borrowing happiness from tomorrow sounds like a fair deal to anyone who expects tomorrow to be even worse than today, or to not exist at all “for tomorrow we die.”
I think pity is the appropriate response, even in the context of remediation/intervention, because despair is the darkest place one can find oneself. While life choices may hasten that descent, including things like alcoholism, despair itself is never a choice.
I absolutely borrow happiness from tomorrow, I very much do pleasurable things in the moment at the expense of a long life because we're looking at a climate apocalypse in my lifetime, and I actively do not want to live through that. If I can have a shorter, but more pleasurable life before shit really hits the fan it seems like a fair trade. I do try not to go overboard or let it control me though because there lies misery.
I feel it’s kinda like suicide in a way
But the difference is that you are still alive. I don’t do any kind of drugs, although there are plenty other ways to ruin my own life. Surviving the moment is sometimes more important.
It can get better indeed and for that I actually consider it a somewhat good strategy especially if suicide was also considered. If you are dead it certainly won’t get better.
It can always be shittier... My take is at least I got to decide on my personal rock bottom.
I've been an incredibly tolerable drunk. I've never been angry, I keep it light, and as far as I know people kept hanging out with me because I was actually funny.
Still your whole world kinda hits the brakes and balances on the two front wheels when you see the term 'echogenic liver tissue'.
It's not liver disease -yet- and I had already been curbing it for a while, but after Covid and my Dad dying(he sucled too for the record, totally not worth the excess) I didn't really keep track of the fact that I was 'refilling' any time I had less than a whole 6 pack at home 'just in case I want more tonight' for about 2 years.
Alcoholics can be shitty people for sure but now I'm just mad at myself because I'm fat and have poor coping skills.
I used to have a few drinks every day, and put a lot of effort into cutting back to fewer, and not every day. It was a struggle because I felt like, there is something suffocating and claustrophobic about my default existence, and sometimes being drunk could alter it enough that I felt like myself. Although this was increasingly rare, the possibility made it feel worth it to roll the dice, so I felt very conflicted about cutting back, even though physically it made me feel like shit in general.
Then I tried better drugs and meditation and very abruptly it didn't feel like a struggle at all because it turns out alcohol is next to useless for that purpose. Now I have a drink every few months or if social situations call for it, most of the time I just don't want to.
uhh ... the japanese are currently trying to make their youth drink more alcohol (despite all the well-understood health drawbacks). so they put out a whole lot of pro-alcohol propaganda.
i suspect that this anime was probably paid-for by the alcohol industry.

i write this just to raise awareness about how bad that is.
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