Thanks for the response. I'll move it to the top of my get done eventually list lol. Could take a few more years. Although there is so much on my list it's genuinely stressing me the fuck out and I haven't been able to enjoy much lately. It's getting debilitating and I haven't 'found the time' to look up any coping strategies
Edit: after rereading, I rambled a lot and basically repeated myself but I'm too tired to fix it... So sorry lol