I'm so fucking annoyed. I'm having such a heavy week. Probably trigger, don't read on. (How do you do spoilers?) Hes ok, but My grandson escaped school and ran straight on the road, and I was watching from too far away to do anything. Cars stopped, the teachers assistants got to him. (They were balling afterwards, I hugged them and told them it's not their fault, he's fast and smart and doesn't understand danger).

Everything else pales in comparison. But just Everything has been going wrong. My telly got smashed last night. The air con in my car stopped working and it's a throw the car out catastrophic failure. Annual bills came out of my grocery money I wasn't expecting. I had to unexpectedly fork out a grand for a part for a new car (dad's trying to give me the rest of the car free though, so really actually a bonus, but right before xmas). I'm having to flip tables with child safety as my grandson is living with me, has a hugely underfunded ndis plan, but I can't do anything to change it without powers to sign things. And it's starting to risk his life. I'm exhausted. I'm so exhausted. I'm grateful for life, things are just things. And out of this bad, I've seen so much beauty. People pulled together to fix the locks on the gates and advocated for big changes for my grandson. I feel like I have a village. But damn, can life just stop gut punching me for a bit.

Eta: thanks for listening if you read this far, here's my current song obsession I've been listening to on repeat. Fitting for right now https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=iEZjTzPVwbk