Today's the day I go back to a useless and humanity-degrading psychiatric institutions I walked away from 2 years ago after useless therapy and medication for a condition I did not have.

My goal is get medication for ADHD. I think I have reasonable chance of walking out with a scrip, and, thankfully, no therapy is required.

In other news, the therapist I selected specifically because she identifies as having autism, already abandoned ship on any AuDHD-focused work in the second session. Her advice after not being able to get a career together and finding out that I like moves: have you thought of being a movie critic? maybe on youtube? Her idea to overcome the starting friction on projects was a little better--to go to the library and do my projects there.

But all the things I expected from reading Autism and ADHD roadmaps--self exploration, re-contextualization, values clarification, passion-finding, examining core beliefs about self, etc.--were not there.

I could feel the sense of relief in her voice when I mentioned some friction I was having in a relationship-- finally, I heard, something normal I can help him with. She was so enthusiastic that we talked about it for the rest of the session and she made sure to tell me to she wanted to talk about it more for the next session.

I wrote her an e-mail yesterday saying I really did want maintain a focus on task completion and I expect I'll be firing her in the next session.

It's funny, because I'm thinking I would be doing her a favor convincing her to train to be an ADHD Coach, which seems pretty lucrative and she has an LCSW, she might be able to make bank. But I can't afford to see one myself and insurance doesn't cover coaching.