Yeah, that's a lot. It's absolutely understandable and pretty typical to find all that hugely intimidating. You identified some great goals there. You want a job, the toxic repetitiveness might want to first say (because lazy etc) and here's a chance to rewire those grooves, it could also make you feel accomplished and productive. (Glass half full, they both exist, at first maybe try and see both). You feel pretty suffocated by your parents and you are able to see they have some toxic mindsets that don't serve them, that they possibly can't see. It's actually pretty special you can see that, they can't, that's a bit of a superpower. Identifying toxic traits isn't as visible as people think. Well done for spotting that! I was in my 30's before I started spotting the toxic in others. I once heard a saying, if it were easy, it wouldn't be worth doing. Things that have great meaning in life, have genuine emotions attached to chasing their achievement. And then when you achieve them you get to look back and be proud of how far you have come and what you have overcome in battling through that. You identified you would like to have your own place. What do the steps to get there look like? What are some skills you can polish that might be helpful along the way. I'm sorry your parents are toxic that's heavy, and hard to navigate. I hope you can find a place where you can engage good boundaries with them and still be able to get along, in the end.