I didn't really have a lot of freedom then. Between familial and societal obligations I put on myself, and being broke as a joke, I have more freedom now than I did then. Actually, I think I miss the excitement of things being new. Music, movies, shows, art, games, when you're young you are experiencing things for the first time, your brain is still a sponge searching for stimulus, and it is exciting!

Not to say life is dull, pointless, or without hope as you age. But it does feel like Moria sometimes…

The world is grey, the mountains old,
The forge's fire is ashen-cold;
No harp is wrung, no hammer falls:
The darkness dwells in Durin's halls