Yeah, I don't really care about "traditional employment." I'd love to have some sort of task or trade or skill I could use, even if it's playing bossa novas in Portuguese restaruants or a part-time job fixing woodwind instruments... but I've been staring at a dissassembled clarinet on my table for the past 2 days and I know all I have to do is find the re-assembly instructions on the PDF I downloaded, and it's taking me FOREVER. Like, I can't even handle non-traditional employment because I can't be fucked to learn basic skills.
And a friend dropped off a bunch of stuff for me to sell on marketplace for commission and I've had it for months and I think I'm just going to return it to her today. Even though I'm broke as fuck and having been eating nothing but beans for a week and been largely housebound to avoid spending money on gasoline, I'm just not motivated by money to bother taking a picture, writing a description, and posting it.
I mean what the fuck.
Thanks for your words of support, though, it's at least nice not to be completely alone.