yeah i think that's normal. i'd guess that many (maybe 70%, especially if adult) of population do not really care about what they look like. so it's ok to put zero effort into it.

that being said, hormones do not only affect the body, they also affect the way that you think. i.e. it's much easier for me to relax and feel happy after taking hormones, not because i know what they will do to my body, but because they kind of "open a window" in my mind that makes it much easier for me to feel comfortable. i'm not sure how else to explain it, but they kinda turn some switches in the brain, and for that reason alone you might still wanna give it a try (maybe some small dosis at first?)

a note i'd like to personally attach: i don't want to have boobs either, and i perfectly get what you mean about "not liking mixed looks". i just want to note as a side-remark that there's medication like finasteride which has some of the nice side-effects (especially psychological shift) without causing boob growth and hip widening and such. (it also does not cause infertility, which is important to me personally.)