I feel you. It's omnipresent and still we need to expose ourselves, we also require social contacts.
Just Sunday I had to cancel something and still feel bad about it. Since then no answer, I have no idea what the rest of the group did. Feels being excluded and a failure. Still, I ran out of spoons and had to do it.
And people say it's okay I understand but they don't really. It's never okay when it relates or targets them. Wish I had a rl. Autistic group to meet or even one relatable person now.
But being in survival mode I just don't have the reserves to put effort in.