I have strong feelings of disgust and passive agressivness every time a man wants to have sexual advances with me.

It makes me want to crush a glass against their skull, genuinely. I don't do it obvi but I have the intrusive thoughts to physically hurt them every time they start to get sexual even if we're trying to date.

It also makes me lose any sexual attraction. I know you're going to say that I should get with an asexual guy. They're very little around and the few I met still had sexual needs somehow which made me immediately leave and block them.