This is me right now. There’s plenty of stuff I could/should be doing, but instead I’m trying to get Control working smoothly on an older laptop, while watching music videos.

Under stimulated by external stimuli that can keep internal processes occupied/satisfied. That lack of stimulation allows those internal processes, which crave stimulation, to begin stimulating themselves subconsciously which it begins to run rampant, as internal imagination has no bounds or limitations to prevent illogical feedback loops.

They aren't wrong.

Learning how to live with that helps more than victimizing yourself